Losing Control

Psalm 13
How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

Do you ever have a week which feels like a week before noon on Tuesday? It's been one of those weeks. I feel like a lot is being thrown at me all at once, a lot has been going on around me, and I'm struggling with not adding the stress of what's being thrown at a lot of people I love.
Yet, God is good. He's shown me ridiculous grace with an extra week for a major project. He gifted me with a sunrise from the tallest building in Parkland this morning. He's given me fantastic friends. He provided a way for me go to a university where my professors care about me. I'm not in control, and that's a good thing, no matter how I feel.

Out of My Hands- The Turning

All my restless heart could do is cry
I stepped on out into the night
The tides turned again and nothing felt right
I searched for truth I sought your light
and all my restless heart could do is cry

Chorus:
Everything I held is out of my hands
Everything you bless is not what I’d planned
Not what I’d seen, not what I’d dreamed

My hearts hope will rise and fall with the wind
A gentle breeze will blow me over again
I’m walking unstable

And all the things I held
Were dragging my heart so far down
And the things I’d dreamed were nothing, Nothing as they’d seemed
And then I question you
And doubt you as the God I know
But all over again, you saved me from myself

It’s out of my soul, it’s out of my soul
You saved me from myself, You saved me from myself