I told God last August that I would give anything for the sake of His Kingdom. He started to question me, bringing up areas that I wasn't at all ready to give. I ended that night realizing that I still had a lot of idols in my life, some even good things. Yet I wanted to change, I wanted to be able to give these things up. Little did I know that God would, in fact, lead me to the place of surrender over and over again in the coming months. It hasn't been easy, in fact it's been downright painful at times. But the funny thing is that God has shown me that He is so much more desirable than all of those other lovers. Why would I worry about man when I have the Creator of the universe longing to spend time with me? Of course, I don't always remember this, and sometimes God has to be rather blunt in order to get my attention. Yet it's good.
Well, here I am. I'm not sure if anyone actually reads this who doesn't already know, but I'm going to say it just in case: I left Praise Covenant Church. I've been there/at Praise Community since I was 7, and now God has told me to leave. There's been a lot of prayer and counsel over this for a few months now, and I talked to Pastor Greg last week. I know that I made the right decision, even though it was hard.
Another dangerous prayer I prayed about a month ago. This time I told God that I didn't want to be comfortable. In other words, I want to be out of my comfort zone, because the life He has called me to live is outside of my comfort zone. He wants me to be willing to run with Him through the mountains, and I don't want to be watching from my safe, cozy house. So, not long after I prayed this, God told me that I needed to pray into what church I would be going to. The default answer I had given myself was PSCC, where most of my friends went and I felt at home. PSCC is an amazing church, and I love them dearly. But God told me no. He told me to go to New Song, a Saturday-night church that I really do love but am scared by half of the time. Scared in a good way, a "wow, this is outside of my comfort zone" way. Funny how that works, huh?
Lesson learned: be careful what you pray. It might just change your life. Yet God has the best plans for us, and praying His will is so worth it.
2 comments:
Seriously, I would be really praying hard and making absolutly sure about God wanting you to go New Song. If fact, it would do you good to ask my mom about that church and see what she says- she knows some interesting things.
Not saying that God doesn't want you there though.
Spencer-
I have definitely prayed long and hard about this decision and would not be going unless God clearly told me. It's been confirmed, too. I know God wants me there.
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